In roughly 5 and a half hours I leave on my first mission trip, this one being to Honduras and needless to say, the timing of this trip couldn't be worse (just received a referal, kids in school, Christy works full time, crazy busy at work, etc.)...or could it? The fact is that if I don't go on this trip now, I may not get the chance in quite some time. As some of you may know, Christy has already been on a mission trip to Brazil; in fact it's what God used to nudge us towards adoption in the first place. If you haven't heard or read the back story, you need to check out Christy's blog from before and during her trip, it's fabulous (http://whitverlifexperience.blogspot.com/) and really gives you the full backstory of how and why we are where we are.
The short of it is that God really changed her on that trip and he set a fire inside her heart for the orphans of the world. When she got back, it was evident to me that she was now light-years ahead of me spiritually and I just didn't get it because I hadn't experienced what she had. It also was evident to me how vital it was going to be for me to go on a mission trip as well. "They" say, and by they I mean everyone who's already been on one, that a mission trip will change your life; it certainly has changed Christy, so I'm excited to see what God has in store for me in Honduras. Even though we have a referal for a beautiful little girl that I'm already madly in love with, there is still something in my heart holding me back to take the next step, to help the other orphans in the world, too.
So...my prayer has been for God to break my heart for what breaks His and on this trip that He would open my eyes like He has Christy's. I know this is a dangerous prayer and that you should be careful for what you ask for, but I've seen the work he's done in Christy and it makes my heart leap for joy seeing it in her...and I want the same thing.
So, Hondoruras, here I come...and more importantly, my Lord, here I am...break me.